People who equate truth with fact are missing the point.

Yes, Jones family, there is a Santa Claus.

This day started out the way our days very often do: way, way too early. Carter was up at 2 am, unable to go back to sleep. By 8 am, he was running laps through the house, kicking dogs and spitting on everything. He called me names, screamed, and was just a little whirling . . . → Read More: Yes, Jones family, there is a Santa Claus.

Approaching the Cliffs of Insanity*

In a dispositional cataclysm of apocalyptic proportions, Brian is feeling optimistic (even hopeful!) about Carter’s med changes, while I’m reduced to chronic heartburn over it all. I’d probably feel better if I didn’t read absolutely everything (Everything! Because I’m a good mother! Informed! Conscientious!) about childhood mental illness and its medications. The atypical antipsychotics . . . → Read More: Approaching the Cliffs of Insanity*

The iCarly Effect

Carter is better this evening. He woke angry and irritable this morning, but with a little extra medicine and a quiet day at home, he’s calm now. We have an appointment with his psychiatrist tomorrow afternoon, and I have a phone meeting with his therapist after that. Hopefully those appointments will be productive! On . . . → Read More: The iCarly Effect

Now it’s my insomnia…

When Carter really falls apart and the day is violent and frightening, I feel like I might never sleep again. I’m upset in my hair and toenails and skin. He’s asleep now, but his sleep is different after a bad day than after a good day. He moans and cries, rolls around, and breathes . . . → Read More: Now it’s my insomnia…

Anything but that. Seriously…anything.

When Carter is coming down from a rage episode, after he’s done screaming and cussing and trying to claw his face off, he sometimes looks into my eyes, and says, cold as a dead fish, “I’m going to kill myself someday.”

The prayers that start moving through my body when he says that are . . . → Read More: Anything but that. Seriously…anything.

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